Jacky – willing to do whatever it took to change my trauma into triumph

Jacky

Jacky – willing to do whatever it took to change my trauma into triumph

My name is Jacky and I am in long-term recovery, which means I haven’t taken any drugs of alcohol in more than 6 years.

I’m not going to share a lot about the mess I created, I will say that there was a lot of trauma in my early years and I dealt with it in the only way I could find to survive; that was alcohol and drugs.

I always knew that I would die of an overdose or violence, I just didn’t know when, or which one it would be.  Towards the end of my addiction it didn’t matter, I just wanted it to hurry up and happen because I couldn’t do it anymore. I didn’t think anything else was possible for me.

The last time that I went to prison something happened and I didn’t try and medicate myself in there.  When I got released I got involved with Central City Concern and I found people just like me, people who loved me until I could love myself.  Even when I relapsed one of my co workers from Central City Concern named Rachel told me that people cared about me and when I was ready to come back home they’d be there waiting.  That statement helped me get a moment of clarity, I turned myself in and followed the suggestions.

My recovery clean date in March 19, 2007 and I never would have dreamed that things that have happened in my life would ever have been possible.  I have been able to rebuild the relationships with most of my family.  Today I am a valued mom, grandma, sister, aunt and more.   Mt grandson Christopher and my granddaughter Destiny have never seen their grandma loaded.  I am a constant in my family and friend’s lives today.  I am also employable and an asset to the community.

I recently took a leap of faith and accepted a job out of state.  I have begun a new chapter of growth to my life.  None of this would have been possible if I hadn’t been willing to do whatever it took to change my trauma into triumph.  It hasn’t been easy, but it has been so worth it.  I burned a lot of bridges in my addiction, but by getting clean and actively participating in my life and recovery, I have built many bridges.  One of those bridges gave me the opportunity to come to Tucson and to embrace some new knowledge.

Sometimes when I think about the gifts that I have received living in recovery; like the bonds with family, true friends, hope, love, faith, peace, intimacy, integrity and my life I cry because I am so humbled by it all.

Thank you Patty my dear friend for letting me to be of service to Hands Across the Bridge in this way.  Being a part of Hands Across the Bridge and selfless service over the years, has put a warmth in that secret spot inside myself that I visit to gain strength.  Just like right now, even thinking about it I have a smile on my face as well as in my eyes.

Hi I’m Jacky and I ’m in long-term recovery and I am very grateful to be a small part of such a huge and amazing family.  I LOVE RECOVERY AND THANK YOU FOR MY LIFE!!!!!!

 

 

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